questions in the head

to be strong and not be emotionally involved?
to leave something behind that can't be forgotten?
to wear the sweetest smile when wearing a sad face is more appropriate?
to keep controlling oneself but deep inside needs all the freedom it can get?
to ignore the questions but answer back with one?

when everything is okay but not for long?
when everything seems right then feel so wrong?
when missing is much better than seeing someone?

too many questions pop in the head but i couldn't seem to find the right answer. i guess that's how life is. we all have excuses because we're afraid of knowing the truth, the joy and the pain an answer may bring.

but then again, we all have our own thinking.
i'm just putting mine into writing.