Catch me if you can

after more than a year of not posting anything, it just feels like i wanted to share something. and i even can't remember my account password but thanks to the feature of google for being so reliable.

what i wanted to write about is something that is real...feelings that are true...and having a hard time deciphering where it will go. questions in my head keep popping in and i just couldn't ask you. i'm scared of what you will say or what your reaction will be. i know there's something there because we don't treat any other people the way we treat each other. it's a matter of who goes first...a matter of having the confidence to say what we've been keeping to ourselves and listen to what we're supposed to hear.

how many have asked if we're a couple...actually, i lost count. i, myself, would like to ask if we're a couple and not just mere friends. if there's something special about our friendship, i guess we already know the answer. we just evade the questions to be answered. let me know what you feel. i want to let you know how i feel. if only i have the strength to even open up the topic. but i would really appreciate if you're the one to bring it up in our conversation.

i won't pressure you into anything. you might need your time but please don't keep me hanging. it's hard as it is to control my feelings. but if you have something to say then say it.

just say it.

cause i can't see myself falling with no one there to catch me.

and that will give you one hundred bad points in a snap.